People getting hitched.

Why is it that so many people are getting married? Is there something wrong with me? I remind myself of Merida in the movie Brave. Her parents wanted her to get married and she didn't want to because she wanted to roll with the wind and shoot arrows and just have fun. I don't really have the desire to get married when I am a teenager. I just want to be free. Like Merida. When you get married, you don't have as much freedom as you would like. I am not saying that I am against marriage. I think that it is a beautiful thing... when you do it right. A lot of people are unhappy. Hmmm I wonder why?! Maybe it is because you didn't get to live before you settled down. I would never want to get married this young. Think of all the things that you can do without a man! I am in a band! I can stay out late! I can do things alone without having someone there constantly.

When I do get married, I have some qualities and things I would like:
1) I want to marry my best friend. I want him to know everything about me and accept me for who I am.
2) I want him to make music with me. Preferably guitar.
3) He has to have a strong testimony. The mission doesn't matter to me, just as long as they love the gospel as much as I do.
4) Style. Please, I just want a guy that knows how to dress.
5) Education. Oh, this one is huge. I want a smart guy. Not some dumbo.
6) Humor. I want someone that will make me laugh all the time without trying. :)
7) Compassion. I want someone that will love others the way that Jesus did. In fact, someone that takes Jesus' example at all times.
8) Someone that isn't controlling.
9) Someone that has integrity.
10) Someone that is chill and laid back.
11) No yelling please!!! :)
12) Someone that treats his mother and father very well! :)

This list could go on forever! I am going to stop though. But there are some important things to me!

Now that I got that out of my system, I will tell you a secret: I'm going to marry Matthew Thiessen one day. :) Just kidding. ;) or i'm not... :D

(I really wish that no one was offended by this post. I wasn't trying to hurt anyone, I was just stating my opinion. If you can handle getting married young, good for you! You are very strong and I admire that, because I really couldn't do it!)

Feelings inside my head.

Sometimes, I feel like I just want to cry. I feel like I am not eloquent in the way that I write. I feel like when I try to convey my feelings, they come out and sound like mush. My problem is that when I try, I fail. When I don't try, the feelings come out and flow perfectly like the wind. Why is that?

Why is that other people get to write and it comes out perfectly? Why is it that I always seem to have writer's block? Why can't I get my emotions out clearly? I'm not being honest with myself. I just need to be me. I can't try and write for other people because then it would not be meaningful.

I am going to try this week to be more creative and to just not worry about things as much as I have been.

It's never too late to start living.